Experiences ~ 5.25.23

Something HAS TO GIVE, you know?

Tension so tight atm – very palpable.  Child lamenting about how she wants new – new home new town new friends new ways of schooling.  Mate lamenting how he wants the same and to stop hurting so much and having new symptoms show up (today I had to cut off most of his otherwise long hair – a lot of head pain now).  I sit and try and listen – but I can’t absorb any of it now – zero zip nada – and it’s now automatic – I shut down.  And as I type this – I am trying to get myself back to center again.

I’m seeing so many now talking about needing LOVE and FREEDOM.  I’m seeing people express the desire for Love and feeling they don’t have enough.  The perspective I hold in my heart – is that many of us are tapped dry –  needing to be filled up – so relying on one anothers current level of empty – well we can’t help or support or simply Love in the way we once could.  This war has kicked us inside out.  And now?  Trying to exist in this realm – in this frequency – is becoming far too much.  I woke up thinking about this experience – for how many years those of us awake have been trying to tune in and feeeeeeeeeeeeel – sharing our intuits about what is happening and when – and we have honestly been wrong all along – at least off.

Not to say nothing is happening – it is – but just that our ability to tune in and get the truth that we ALL WANT (WHEN IS THIS SHEOT GOING TO SWITCH AND HOW IS IT GOING TO CONTINUE TO PLAY OUT) has been blocked.  Is it because of the war?  Is it for our own benefit?  Maybe.  I just know that – for me – the dreams I have had – and the feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeels I have had about the timing factor – the season I see things switching – what resonates and stays with me – year after year I still wait for that IT to happen.  And that IT and the need FOR it is not. leaving. my. body.

So while I suffer along – struggle most of the time now – putting on a happy face – distractions not doing what they once did – snapping at anything that is not what I need or outside the bounds of Love – it gives me a sense of comfort – in a strange way – to know I ain’t alone.  Everything feels like we’re inside a giant lottery cage – each of us individual balls – being tossed around – waiting for the damn cage to stop and the door to open so we can all plop out.

Hey – that’s not too bad a metaphor.  lol

UGH.

Did I say UGH?

Yeah.

U G H.  F’ing U G H ENUFF to infinity and BEYOND already!

So…………..moving on………… here are a couple of interesting experiences.  First one – spouse was at the bank – in line with a lot of others before this holiday weekend – suddenly entire system goes down – everyone is asked to leave.  I check down detector – yep – the banking system is down with this particular (HUGE) bank.  Even the lights went out – although there are no local power outages.

Then I see someone share this:

“Not to excite anyone prematurely but about 10 minutes ago 3:30 PM EST, I was outside doing some work on mechanical items and heard a sound coming from the east and knew from having spent alot time up along side carriers when I was in the navy ,that these planes coming weren’t the civilian jets I am used to seeing flying over often. Four of them came into view going a east-westernly direction at full throttle and in battle formation .They were gone within seconds. Remembering what one guy said about when you see military aircraft flying around,especially in places you often don’t see military aircraft,to shout out there goes another dark type out of the game. There are no ceremonies or airshows in the area I am aware of and the Indy 500 isn’t till the 29th,so no reason for military fighters to be flying full speed across the sky. They clearly were in a hurry. We have heard that the movie would be ending soon and things happening would be coming into view. Let’s hope so. “

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