I’m about to ramble for a bit……..

The energy today was another UGH day. Overall. It’s like the UGH is now running continuously in the background and it is up to each of us individually to push it back or ignore it or visualize it being removed. However, I can “rise above” those whatever-they-are and be in my own space.

At times.

Distractions.

Lots of distractions now…..

It almost feels as though something is taking my face and saying LOOK and I simply don’t want to LOOK. No – I want to see the NEW.

Last night I wrote a message to myself that essentially reminded myself – powered myself up – to BE IN CONTROL of my own inner world. And NO MORE inner dialoguing – no more inner repeating the same stories. The same f’ing trauma’s. I visualize a giant sucking machine lovingly removing EVERY DAMN THING this matrix put into me that I DID NOT CONSENT TO.

TAKE IT OUT. REMOVE IT. I don’t want it. I don’t need it. IT IS NOT ME.

IT IS NOT ME.

However I am also being gentle with myself – I have to be. You cannot create heaven in hell – not as long as hell (those energies) are operational. We can just shine our inner “flashlights”. This is far more of a complex experience than I realize – I keep sensing that.

So………..turn off the matrix. SPEED UP THE ENDING. END IT ALL NOW.

I noticed something today – the feel OF the matrix. I paid to register our car. It is our car but the state says it is their CAR. That all caps. I noticed when I typed, I was only allowed to type in ALL CAPS. VICTORIA INC according to “them”. The energy coming from “their” site was so oppressive. I did it quick and exited.

Cleared my computer and me from the experience. It’s all so archaic and old and I am sooooooooooo beyond DONE with it.

Have I said how DONE I am? lol

My body is doing things it was programmed to do – that I look at now and know: this is not natural.

This is not me.

My desire to connect with the REAL GOD – Jesus too – has been present for awhile. I’m finding that a challenge atm. “Call on me and I will be there.”

Not seeing that. But I also know – I feeeeeeeeeel – I have to remove those shells around my heart in order TO.

And it could also just be another program I am clearing – or that has been cleared.

Our REAL connection to REAL Source – we may not experience it at all here. It may be something totally different than what we have had here.

I take on my family’s pain. I see my mate struggle so much physically these days – with walking, getting around, dealing with his chronic pain. And now he has to really watch being around people – the jabbed. This is no way to live. And I am absolutely powerless to heal him. I can assist – but I cannot heal – even though I know intuitively this is a gift I have – certainly I once had it. WE ALL do. Seeing him going through these health issues for over 10 years – it is overwhelming. I’m a different person because of the medical horrors and mistreatment he has gone through – and all of the treatments including many holistic approaches. I am more vocal and empowered but also more apathetic. And my girl – with the issue of friendship. She has been bullied this past year by a couple of girls she once knew in person (they moved away with their families in recent months). This has occurred online. It incenses me – pains me to see her suffer. So tonight I strongly pushed her to speak up and out (as honestly mama bear could not take it anymore herself!) – set a good healthy solid boundary and claim “NO MORE I AM DONE WITH YOU TWO.” Call them out on their abuse. With our help, she did it and I am so proud of her for taking a stand on her behalf. Petty, fake, toxic behavior – in our children – is learned and allowed by lazy, uninvolved parents. It ALL brings up that ongoing inner feeling I have carried since I was a little one: I DO NOT BELONG HERE. This place is foreign to me. And many “human” behaviors considered “normal” I find appalling.

NONE of it is “normal”.

Who allowed unhealthy to become normal anyway?

So my emotions these days are all over the place.

Moving on with more thoughts coming my way……perhaps each of us is getting lined up individually to get outta here – so there IS no creating new here (lasting that is – I am getting glimpses to embrace totally new ways that I am looking into but even that feels like a “distraction UNTIL”….). Certainly I just do not feeeeel this realm is fixable. “There ain’t enough sage…..”

So we’re in that ongoing holding pattern. Hence – WRAP IT UP. Speed up OUR END.

And/or it could be what I read in Linea’s comment section. Something Rose said:

“Rose said the same thing…(quietly in the comments) – that we have already gone through this and whatever we’re going to go through here at the end. And right now we’re up there in those beds waking up, and this is our memories coming back…, this is our debrief…, watching what happened already.”

That could make sense…………And Bill Wood said the ending was already done. I feel something happened in 2012 where “they” could NOT get their ending. Something happened in that December 2012 period. And I’ll bet those f’ers have looped and looped and looped us to where time now feels sooooooooooooooooo g.d. slow and yet – fast at the same time. It’s like there are two different versions of me awake now. I know this – I have had SO many deja vu’s the past few years – including one just yesterday. Now when they happen I say “nope already done this” and move through it without attachment or saying “ooooh cool one of these things again!” We HAVE already done this. And I have also been feeling the need to remember again – to get those memories back.

Question is – is it us HERE that has gone through this – or US on the outside?

IF that is truth.

SO are we playing out the movie or are “they” delaying the end?

Or both?

Ok – enough on that. My mind is telling me it’s had enough.

Here are some finds.

Love,

******

Linea’s latest….(wondering what male came in at the end – she sure ended it quickly….)

Our exit. Update.

Yep. Everything moves around the north star.

As I told my mate – one way to prod awake the normies – those who watch this show. When they see these “things” on this show say hey the PCR test doesn’t work – well they’ll believe it then. (eye roll – but it’s the truth – that’s how these people roll)