editor victoria’s comment ~ i am relating to this one in particular to the current eating habits. i’ve been really craving bread and butter. noodles. tonight for dinner i wanted bread, butter and ice cream. i’m not nearly as interested in eating veggies and as i shared with linea, a little over a week ago, i had this thought that it doesn’t matter now what i eat. most of “me” isn’t here and this experience is nearing the end. i now sleep more and all of those feelings of needing to just be with my own space/energy has kicked up a notch – and it was already intense. i don’t want company these days. i don’t want to talk much. we had company over the weekend – i was mostly quiet. didn’t really engage – overall this is unlike me. and i as well have really been letting go of beliefs – to the point where i don’t resonate with even wanting one. i want new. real. supportive. and pure. … the trust issue – yes. unless one is awakened to the idea of the control systems, i can’t trust them. or shall i say i do not give them my trust. until one becomes in knowledge of most of their narratives are intentionally created and inserted (introduced/pushed) programs, they can “act out” and “attack” or betray. been there, done that. like-minded Being’s who align with Home are my tribe. i am also very in knowledge of and in gratitude of my mate – who has continued to awaken and grow in heart along with me. it’s been rough – very rough at times – both of us have had our own illusions and programs to explore – and in this realm it has been more acceptable for women to do that exploring – but we know that has changed and more men are “getting it”. no more hiding. authenticity is the way to Be. our Heart’s know of no other way. and love her concluding words. we aren’t here to get lost in Bliss in this realm or save this realm (this planet). it isn’t Home. and her unintentional use of the term – new cage (meaning new age). cage – absolutely. we came here to bring this experience of control and deception to an end. Part 2 linked next.
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Published on May 27, 2019
