this is an intense one. real and raw. confirmation from what Rose has said – we literally stand up in our bodies at the time of transition/event. confirmation for what we are experiencing – this deep purging. mental and emotional and physical. difficult dream time experiences. the astral has been closed (i felt/heard that this morning actually). however we are still having dreamtime experiences – and if we are experiencing attacks, etc. that is because those entities are now in this realm.
all is being cleaned up. this epstein stuff – the exposure – is difficult to grasp. to view. even if people don’t watch – we “feel” it energetically. and i will be brutally honest – i have NO DESIRE to “feel” ANY of that filth. NONE. what would be the purpose? the point? and yet – i am. we are.
interesting theory about his arrest being the domino that brings it all down. destroys the entire game. he is it – in her opinion – and i had that feeling last week too. and yes he IS just a front. he was used – funded by the controller’s. totally align w/her insight on this entity.
the nagging cough – we had that earlier this year. for weeks. i felt it was part virus part purge. makes me ask the question – is getting out of here THAT difficult? are we THAT infected here (if we have to be purged before exit)? the horror of that – the sadness that brings up. i am so sorry we have all had this experience.
so even though we may not be in our “real” bodies – these bodies here have been infected with the matrix virus. i know i need so much more time alone to process and feel and i am not getting this. i am quite frustrated with this. (here comes a reflection)… i have been stating i am not able to make commitments right now. i cannot guarantee i will do xyz on a particular date. ….i was working for a neighbor again today doing cleaning. body was hurting. feeling quite “enslaved” – doing this type of work when i am so much more capable and worthy/deserving of getting paid in this manner doing WHAT I AM GOOD AT and what brings me JOY. i have struggled w/that throughout my adult experience (as i have shared here). it’s an inner struggle – an inner battle. pushing myself to hold gratitude for the opportunity to make money while that feeling within wants NEW and BETTER and FREEDOM. perhaps it is time for me to allow myself to feel it all without force. a walking paradox of complexity. and finding peace in that.
last night i wept for the longing for purity – no surprise that is coming up given what is being revealed now. the innocence. and the vitality of youth. linea spoke in her recent video of knowing we were never created originally to age – how that is all a program here in this pit. i absolutely align completely with that.
anyway – i’m 25 minutes into this video – have about 15 more minutes to go. if i have any more insight i will share. love, v.
Published on Jul 23, 2019
