good update. i have noticed the past few weeks those “merging” experiences – esp. the bone chilling moments – i feel are over. for me. and now – as lisa said – it’s this feeling of limbo. for me it manifests as “ok NOW what?” tonight on a walk i felt calm and focused and thought ok it is time to really be Me and start over again. those words – “time to start over” – but anew – was solid in my Being. totally alone – but not lonely. i absolutely feel that.
i have had several times i woke up from dreams with songs and feeling – and it was as though someone was reaching out to me to say hello again. i HAD thought it was perhaps another person at Home – but after what Lisa says – it may just be ourselves at Home/on the outside.
i am not experiencing the memory return….yet…
i said to a couple of you today – i am close to 100% being “in the moment” – in the now. i do what i do and move on – in this flow – whether i enjoy the activity or not – i do and move on and let it go. and i know some of you are right there in zero point.
interesting about restoring the relationships – here – at home. tonight we called my dad – and i suddenly had this urge to talk about memories from my childhood. it was REALLY important to me – felt very important – and much to my surprise – HE WENT ALONG with me – got into it – and began asking me if he remembered this moment and that one. my dad RARELY if EVER gives me that kind of time. it ended up being a 45 minute wonderful hpone call. when i got off the phone i told my mate this happened for a reason. i was reaching out to him – rejoining with him again – an authentic relationship because my dad has been the one person in my family i felt the most “connection” to – and i have seen him at Home on the outside several times in my dreams. so it was a BEAUTIFUL wonderful awesome experience and felt like i “sealed the deal” with my dad.
antarctica…………..WOW! the projector – the all seeing eye – is antarctica – just like heather ann tucci jarraf has said. she (heather) has said once we hear about antarctica – we are at the end. and OMG my mate went to get some supplies today and saw a sign that says “Antarctica Antifreeze”….LOL…then he comes home and sees things on youtube on Antarctica……..
we ARE at the end.
love,
victoria
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