i was not knowledgeable of how widespread and horrific these fires are – esp. in the amazon. i read last night that the lungs of “mother earth” are burning. i have felt – since tuning in to the idea that this is ending – that those in charge are going to continue creating destruction up until the last moment. they seem to be at it w/these global fires. this explain why my entire family began coughing in the past 10 days or so – with no explanation for it. the dust. the smoke from the fires in this realm. to me i am feeling that this is showing how small this realm is. this space in which we inhabit. when you have a situation where dust from africa can spill into the atmosphere and into the atlantic ocean and impact weather – yeah – this space is in truth quite small.
so my mate stepped up big this morning and added what i think may be the end of this show. i had felt in recent days i had reached a point where my insights weren’t expanding and i had nothing new to offer. last night i went to bed feeling overwhelmed and dismayed and energetically feeling at an even deeper level: i simply cannot do this experience one more day. but then as a woman spoke of last night in the comment section of lisa harrison’s latest video – when i get to that space where the anger and pain and all of those heaviest of the heavy of emotions overwhelm me and i think i cannot take one more second – the heart expands. something new comes through. and my mate shared something – his feel – that i will write up later and share. and he got chills and i got tears. as i said earlier before our conversation – either we’re seeing the chaos before we get out or we’re seeing the end for us all. i have to trust that feeling within that says “all is ok. you’re ok. i’m ok. ride it out. hang on. the exit out is very near.”
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Published on Aug 21, 2019
