Quick Reflection: Needing a Hug

 

I’ll get right to it:  I awoke to see someone stole my debit card info and went on a spending spree.  My bank notified me and the usual happened ~ card canceled, new one ordered, claim filed and credit issued.  My exact words were “these fucking idiots picked the wrong account to hack.  I am broke!” No merchandise for the criminal.

So now I write checks in case it happened locally by someone carrying a portable card reader.  I notified local businesses.

As this happened my girl received an invite to a friend’s b-day party.  I saw the list of activities ~ musical hoola hoops.  T-shirt decorations.  Slip and slide.  My heart sank.  This family has a lot of money and can afford all of this.  My girl’s recent b-day party had homemade kettle corn and cake and a pinata.  We don’t have the kind of money to buy t-shirts and decorating supplies for 6-8 girls much less hoola hoops.  I know my girl had a great time at her party.  And that’s what matters.  But I know how this world is – kids begin to see how other families do THIS or THAT – and they complain about it.  “How come we don’t do that?”  It’s already happening.  Neighbors up the street have cool folding down campers.  All the supplies.  They have money to give their kids the best.  Many families around here do.

And here today ~ some fucker decides to attempt to steal from me – someone in my $$ position.

WTF??!!!

Yes, yesterday I was in a place of gratitude over money.  And I still feel that within.

And yet now I had this ugly attack on me that is rather tarnishing the beautiful stone w/in.

Deep breathing……..accepting…….reminding myself how amazing and worthy I am of ALL that is possible.

And yet….I see no manifested proof….yet…but I claim it and call it in NOW.

The road “out” of the pit seems to have the hands staying behind reaching out to grab at ya as you exit.  So be it.  I am still exiting.

I long once again for the new realm ~ clean playing field.  Board wiped clean.  No one has “more” than another unless it is by pure – PURE – freedom of choice.

For now I am still here in a realm of so much potential..and beauty..and yet where I obviously need to be more on guard for those who have no respect for what is pure…who have no respect for freedom.

No lesson.  No karma.  Just free will anything goes insanity.

Freedom from the insanity cannot come soon enough for me.

That is all for now.

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