Reflections on 9/11……17 years later…

 

how ya’ll doing today?  my mood is quite somber and low today.  here it is 9/11, 17 years later, and we still haven’t been told the full truth.  we’ve been left to figure things out ourselves, which many of us have been doing ~ for 17 FRIGGING YEARS.

we have created blogs around it.

we have spoken out about it.

written books.

we have lost relationships and jobs because of our work.

we have been ridiculed by family and friends.

and yet here we still are…year another year gone by and I have not seen anyone in the Q community or in the white house speak of 9/11 (except to chant “never forget never forgive”).

why not?  what’s the damn hold up?  is there a hold up?  or are we just going to keep letting year after year pass on by while well meaning but grossly misguided individuals continue to mourn in fields where an alleged plane went down (but no plane was actually seen/captured)….

*where just 2 planes caused 3 buildings to collapse to rubble.

*where an alleged jetliner crashed into the pentagon causing only one narrow hole and no fuselage was found.

*where within hours footage was removed and the words “a new pearl harbor” and “osama bin laden” came spewing from the mouth of brian williams and friends.

in the days that followed this massacre, i began to question – at times aloud – including once in a restaurant with my family.  oh goddess was that almost comical.  two of my family members were attacking me, including one commenting how “people like you” (that would be me) scare them given my right to vote.  veins popped out in the forehead.  meanwhile i’m sitting there, stunned (i was much younger obviously), thinking not only where the FUCK am i now but WHY the fuck am i here and certainly i cannot be the only one here who has questions.  question authority – not allowed. ok then nazi sympathizer’s.  at least i knew where they stood on the issue and i with them.

i don’t know if part of what i am feeling today is part of the collective. perhaps part of it is.  i tuned in and did feel some was.  and yet much of this energy i am experiencing is mine.  accumulating over the past 17 years.  17 years of doing what i can do to create change – to bring truth out into the open.

it’s been a long 17 years and i know – i will not “do” another 9/11 remembrance day unless the full truth is revealed for ALL.  for now it’s just another day to feel the anguish of those murdered along with the pain of deep frustration and weariness in knowing those who planned and created this still walk free.

and that is no way to honor those who died.  

in somber kindness,

victoria

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