I had an awakening moment last night and into today where I not only saw how I created an unpleasant situation, but on the flip side I saw the power of my ability to Create.
How do I wish to use my energies?
Given the intensity of the incoming energies, our ability to create is speeding up – and quickly.
I took the space to dive in deep and acknowledge some old programming. I also saw/felt the resistance ~ part of it I felt was matrix programming, part of it was simply a part of me that wishes to keep me safe and away from painful situations.
Well, needless to say this brought forth the tears. Relaxed the chest muscles. I awoke with the chest itching and heaviness again, the heaviness feeling like a huge weight of energy. I knew it was something needing to be seen and released.
After doing some clearing, I was guided to remember to always return to the heart.
Always, in All Ways, return to the heart.
Even if the heart is closed up, keep going there. Keep knocking. Keep at it.
Remember who I really Am. Not just in this life experience but in ALL.
That being said, for now I feel called to remember who I was as a child.
And to remember who I was when I was 32. A magical year for me. I transformed in so many ways Spiritually and from the heart, an intuitive told me I was “lit up like a christmas tree”. However it was important to also keep myself grounded, she guided me.
That sounded boring so uh, well let’s just say I did not make the best choices after that. And yes, even at 32, I really did think that sounded boring. I was rather tired of being tied to the realities of third dimensional, linear crap. I was flying high in the Spiritual Realm.
After making less than fully conscious choices lead me to experiencing situations I did not wish to experience, I became more locked into the lower realm of linear reality. If I couldn’t see it or smell it, it was nonsense, more or less. Distrust began to form and in time, apathy. Thankfully I did have the occasional moments of trust and hope and wonder.
Creating more of those now.
So another reminder (my higher selves are so patient with me) to remember and return.
Remember ME.
Return to the Heart.
Always.
After the fully aware moment of agreement, I walked out into the kitchen, was drawn to look at the dish towel on the oven and saw an imprint of a heart. See for yourself below.
Here is to our Awakening.
Much calmness and love~
Victoria
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