OK, I know I recently said I would not be having any more psychic/intuitive readings. I feel perhaps Source/Higher Selves said “let’s bring her one that will be Truth”. This came about by a recent connection and she reached out to me and said she felt guided to give me a reading, free of charge, if I was open. So I felt it out and thought (with a skeptical eye) let’s do it.
I communicated with Higher Self (who I am feeling more lately is really Me – just in a more solid, expansive version) and said “you have my permission to speak with her.” I also informed the young woman that she was not to speak to any Being other than my Higher Self as I had fired my guides this past year and was only relying on All Of Me in which to tune in and receive All.
She sent the results to me and they were insightful and felt, overall, pure. She’s good and really captured my authentic way of Being.
She saw me coming from a sun planet outside of this Universe. I am keeping the name and other details private. She stated that I am very commanding with very very strong energy (yes, two “very’s” lol). My struggle is how to utilize this energy. Do I let it come from my solar plexus/heart? Is it in haste and/or anger?
She shared how I have a very difficult time in close relationships, partnerships and friends alike. Being human is a struggle (duh). I have a strong disdain for drama and overly-sensitive beings (even though I fall into those traps myself). I feel very at peace and at home with my tribe and have a hard time with outsiders.
More than once it was mentioned how powerful my energy is ~ the best way for me to use it, in this physical life cycle, is through communications and the arts. Writing. Speaking. Sharing all of the wisdom I have learned from the origins of my home realm. She gave me some tips on remembering that.
Confidence and trust in myself is key to sharing. Knowing and Being who I am.
This sharing of who i am has been a struggle for me. I know I have a very strong energy and oooh it has been painful and draining for me to keep it low around others lest I offend them or scare them away. Today on my walk, I was thinking about all of this, drawing up my energy from my center, moving it around and I swear ~ I scared a cat. I looked at it and greeted it – said I was sorry if I frightened her. But it still had this look of fear in its eyes and bolted away from me.
I have had that happen with humans too. Not so dramatically but I have had others say “you scare me”. Of course they were very asleep to their own Being. That was more in my younger years when I was more comfortable with my, um, Prowess.
I see where learning how to blend in has served me at times. Although that has been an extreme I have gone to, it has given me the tools to reign in my energy. Control it. Problem is I became more focused on that energy restriction being in the best interest others but in truth, it was also about the best interest for me in that I feared the responses of others. It has been a challenge to know how to handle adversity in my face. To be challenged, questioned ~ especially from one who is as commanding as I am.
A life long challenge.
All out of fear of embracing who I am – strengths and vulnerabilities.
I know that already.
But validation is always good. A good tool to use as a reminder ~ that is no longer who I am for it does not serve me.
Tools are good as are reminders.
Especially during this period of transformation and transition. I know we all will be called upon as our Full Selves come “online”. I have thought perhaps the gifts I have now will disappear as we transition. I now see – not so. They will grow in power. Morph into new creations.
For each of us.
As she said “things are about to get exciting”. (i feel that implies for us all)
(I had a follow-up conversation with her. She thanked me, hoped it was helpful and again mentioned again how very strong my energy is. It is time to tap deeper into that reservoir and share.)
