If I could put a pic to this year
DARK TO LIGHT.
Transition time. 2023. ALL IS SEEN.
The heavy lifting is done.
See that person above?
I look old – old compared to just 1-2 years ago.
I feel like I have aged 10 years in the span of that time.
My Light isn’t bright like it used to be in my eyes.
There’s a fatigue there. An old, ancient fatigue.
And my girl.
My beautiful girl – I see it in her too.
Today she told me she read an article where scientists are saying socialization isn’t healthy – we should live like hermits – that is what she is going to do. Obviously she’s trying to convince me her decision is backed by science. She knows me better than that – and I her. But I “get” her mindset – where it’s coming from – and why. And it continues to enrage me in moments – and will – until it no longer needs to. And I’m going to continue to scream and roar about this one issue until I no longer need to.
This morning she informed me she had another mouth sore. She did indeed. I went inside a busy store for just a few minutes – masks everywhere – in a town with close to 70% vax rate. I said I was fine – mate didn’t know I went inside (it was for pick up but there was a mistake so I had to go inside and take care of it) – and asked me upon arriving home “are you sure you weren’t around anyone? you are making me dizzy.”
FUCH, you know?
Just F U C H.
So I showered – did the awesome frequency encoded spray gifted to me by my beautiful friend Catharina.
I can’t FORCE my girl to change her way. I encourage. I guide.
I spoke with passersby and a neighbor today. She was quite upset with me doing just this. You’re healthy, you’re fine, you’re strong – we tell her this daily. We have protocols. And she knows this. But she also knows what’s going on. Even if we hadn’t said a word (which we don’t anymore – we stopped doing that months ago – we always tell her we weren’t around anyone – we’re good – we feel fine – but she still feels and calls us out each time – we really make light of it) – so even with hiding and silence – she would still and still does know and see and feeeeeeel.
That’s why ’22 was and is it for me. Unravel time for all to see – no more hiding.
NO MORE HIDING.
OUR LIVES MATTER.
TRUTHERS LIVES MATTER.
We “conspiracy theorists” LIVES MATTER.
And mostly – for me – OUR CHILDREN’S LIVES MATTER.
FLIP. THE. SWITCH. ’23. FUCHING FLIP IT.
I’m not into celebrating a new year.
I am into celebrating Truth and Freedom and Connection.
That. is. all.
Love,
Victoria
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PREACH! 🙌🏻 You’re not alone, sis. I have also aged visibly in the last 2 years, to the point of being unrecognizable. I’ve gained 90 pounds. Look and feel 20 years older (and people used to remark on how I looked half my age and had perfect skin – no one does now!). Hair fast turning white. And inside, I am weary and have no fight left. Despite being angry. And I am so, so angry, that we’re still in THIS HELL.
It just won’t compute in my head that this is freaking 2023 and we’re still here. I keep looking around thinking, “This is wrong. We’re not supposed to be here. WTF?!” Every bit of me is screaming inside with that feeling of it all being wrong. I’ve done all I know to do, cleared trauma and manifested and “done the work” for years to NO EFFECT. And dear lord, we’re still in the matrix and it’s worse than ever! 🤬😭 So, what was it all for? Nothing?And the unthinkable next question – what if we never escape? 🥺💀
Sending hugs to you and your daughter. Yes, that mentality you describe her having is clearly one of despair, feeling you have no choice but to accept defeat, so you try to reframe your thoughts about the need you’re forced to live without, just to stay somewhat sane and feel some sense of control. It is heartbreaking for her to have to do that at her age. To lose hope of ever having a need met, so you convince yourself you don’t need it, to keep from breaking down. God love her heart. 😥 This place… It’s stretched us all past the breaking point. Yet here we are. We need a new year. We need a new everything. But will we get it?
Much love and hugs 💕
love! DON’T QUIT. KEEP GOING. that’s all i got. lots of love and hugs to you too. (and you are still beautiful and have a beautiful Light – i saw it in that video)