Well a lot of purging today. Some of it I feel is the “finality” of it as in somehow this will no longer be allowable in my life/space.
Are you the type who colors outside of the lines now and then? Or do you feel the need to keep it all in between the black lines/spaces? I go back and forth ~ although I always come back to the wild, free Spirit within who says JUST BE ~ however and whoever that is at ANY given moment.
I recalled today as a child a girl from school. She let me borrow her markers. We each had our coloring books. First she lectured me on how I was to use her markers. Then she lectured me on how I was coloring outside the lines ~ not allowable apparently.
No one had told me such a thing. Given my age, I took another one of her markers, used them exactly the way she did not wish me to use them while scribbling all over the page. Just because I could. I remember thinking how absolutely uptight she was. We were KIDS. Not adults.
My mother was the type for whom the house had to be spotless. My dad, he had to have all go his way in order to feel safe. Overall I appreciate that because I too like things to be clean and, overall, orderly. I like things to go smoothly. And yet sometimes you just gotta breathe and let things unfold. let others BE.
And I have extreme dislike for anyone who tells me “how to do things” ~ especially when I have not asked ~ or when someone throws anger or what I call the “buttinski” my way when I have undertaken a task and done it my way and not theirs.
THAT is the behavior that is no longer welcome in my space. I set that in place today.
Part of freedom. Let me be ME. If I am not harming another, there is no issue and vice versa. Serious issue of mine. I need – love – thrive – on being left to just BE ME.
I laugh as I visualize a bubble around me and someone has stepped into it and begun telling me how things are and how things will be and other rhetoric. Excuse me, I say, I have not invited you into my bubble. We could ALL use such a bubble, right?
Noticing some computer/internet/electrical stuff too…
Before heading out to get a few food items, I listened to some of Linea’s latest video (which I will link). If this intel is accurate, at 7:37am, Pacific Time, we will experience the ending of this old and a transition into the new. I don’t know if it is the Schumann spiking (image below) but I had sudden moments of feeling so light, I thought I could fly. One happened while I was in the car and so I felt the need to say “ok girl keep the vessel on the ground”. It was that strong. (also of note ~ the magnetopause live data has not been “live” in 24 hours ~ WSO/Steve Olson noticed that as well. I still see a white rabbit off to the left which continues to perplex me)
I had a hard time keeping myself grounded while in the store too. I have said on many days over the past year and a half I have felt between 2 worlds, pretty equally split. Today I felt like 3/4 of me was just elsewhere, leaving a small portion of consciousness in this body here. As I left the store and the clerk handed me my receipt, my immediate thought to say was “have a good life”. I shook my head and thought “that’s nonsense”.
Or is it?
I cannot say for sure.
On the way home, I said ok Universe, show me some guidance on the radio.
Turning it on I first hear “Young hearts be free tonight” (Rod Stewart ~ Young Turks). Second song ~ message in a bottle (The Police) ~ last song “The Sign” (Ace of Base ~ “I got a new life…you would hardly recognize me”…). That last one faded out ~ I couldn’t get it to come in again.
A “sign” of what is happening?
Letting it all unfold……
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Victoria
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