wow – this physical pain stuff continues. i’m feeling it in my bones. bottoms of feet. hips. lower back. hands cramping. riding my bike normally makes me feel good ~ not the last 3 days. seriously WOW!
bloating. little appetite. and the slug-sensation continues. i feel most everything about me – from how i move to how i talk – is in slow motion.
watched a WSO/Steve Olson video tonight detailing the magnetics (will link it later). serious pressure and a lot of ions smothering this realm. as i mentioned to my mate earlier ~ it feels like we’re being radiated.
in the shower earlier i was contemplating “stuff”. the concept of “heal thyself”. this has often felt unfair to me ~ not that i don’t know we have this capability. we do. however much of that in our DNA was shut off so we are in a guessing game as to how to heal ourselves. just like we’re in a guessing game on how to really create. feels like walking/being/doing blind, as i have recently come to feel. (plus there’s the assault games we have been under and the entire energy harvesting system of pay to live….)
this way of Being ~ healing ourselves ~ is supposed to be natural. and easy. miracles aren’t supposed to be a rare gift – they are supposed to be THE WAY we live and experience and Be. maybe that doesn’t resonate with everyone. i have had to open myself up to the idea that not all carry this knowing. not all have the cellular memories, the impressions in the body, the conscious awareness/visions, etc. and maybe not all have had the experience of being Pure Creator’s in the purest, divine, most free sense. i KNOW what i have once experienced while living in a physical body. early, original gaia. other realms. that’s why the more i have awakened and become aware of all of these memories and knowings within me, the more difficult it has been for me to be here. while it has been easier to be Me, it has NOT been easier to be here.
the book “the secret” popped into my mind. i was once heavily into all of that. i even started a discussion group around it. i saw so many struggle with this – including myself. one woman, a friend of mine, who had a host of health and money issues and who was so positive in her focus and thinking, seemed like a natural at all of this “law of attraction” stuff. and yet – years later she still had (has) the health issues, the money struggles. but she remained focused and positive.
you know – we were designed to heal INSTANTLY. and manifest INSTANTLY.
today as i tune into this, i have this feeeeeeeeeeeeeeling that this law of attraction and all other things similar do not work fully here in this realm. the frequencies of this realm are not compatible. if it were, we would all be manifesting our heart’s desires regularly and often – not this hit and miss that seems to be the case. it is likely, imho, that the authors and promoters of this book did not create their success w/this “secret” stuff alone – they had system controllers (i.e. publishers, marketing guru’s and the like) promoting them – giving them recognition and money. hey lookit me – i read the secret and my life expanded hugely. oh but i forgot to add i had a lot of help and support along the way.
self-made. uh huh. i’m not buying it. i gave the secret away ~ donated it to a local little library. i stopped reading such books several years ago. as i say ~ help us turn on those magic codes within so we CAN do this self-made creating!
and get us OUT of here too please. thank you.
other than that, my sensitivities continue to be intense. noise. other’s talking around me. my goodness, the need to be alone has become more intense if that was possible. people i see around the neighborhood, with whom i would normally at least have some sort of conversation, just cannot do that now.
i am also calling forth each day to see the purple and pink skies. to see the matrix. to see the dome, the grid. to see the new realm. so speaking of the law of attraction if it worked the way it was supposed to here, i would have seen some amazing things by now. i would have created it. i am calling it forth with all that I Am.
and even though i am moving at a slugs pace these days, my I AM is quite done with the slugs pace of manifesting.
i did have an insight come to me ~ not that it soothed me much but it made some logical sense (grrrr). taking down the deep state, the cabal and all of those systems they infiltrated is a process. shutting down the matrix realm and “removing” – releasing us is also a process.
yes ok i said as i kicked some rocks and resisted the urge to pick one up and throw it. hard.
it is a process. of which we are at the end. collectively those of us aware of such feel this too.
for now we do what we can. the best we know how. i for one continue to call forth THE END and freedom.
that is all for now….
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