Today’s Finds and Reflections ~ 10.8.22

 

Traumatized Woman Sit On Bed Bedroom Stock Photo 145891352 | Shutterstock

 

This pretty much depicts where I am atm.  I have pushed and pushed myself – and focused and refocused – to be honest “pretended” to be someone different (“fake it until you make it”)- and yet I  keep coming back to this inner me that feels disassociated.  I feel like I can’t do much of anything really useful (not the way I used to that is) and I know I could be a far better human – friend – partner – mama.  I don’t need more rest.  I need real healing.  I need so much love – real love right now – and I feel empty – I am thirsty to be “filled up”.  I had a good healing session this week – and got attacked 10 minutes afterward.  Coincidence?  I think not.  It’s f’ing continued.

And so do I in spite of how I feel within.  I’ll crawl across that f’ing finish line if I have to – but I am NOT STAYING IN THIS FUCHING FAKE PRISON with the rest of the zombified sheep nor do I intend to cross that line with them.

NO.  NO.  NO.

I’m kicking and screaming and swearing like a f’ing trucker.  Spitting mad.  One of the first outta here at “the” moment.

I see how this war has been playing out.  I see how some get more of a pass than others.  I see how those targeted are attacked in certain ways.  And I see those who feel and seem to be pretty impervious somehow think others can be like them too and they want nothing to do with those who continue to be attacked.  Fuch that sheot is all I have to say to that.  My mind feels fractured because it is.  Will I and can I be healed?  Absolutely!  But for now – this is how it is.  Some of us have just had a harder time here.  It’s been life long for me.  And that is how it is.  PERIOD.  Anyone uncomfortable with that truth can exit stage right from my life.  I’m f’ing done being someone I’m truly not in order to make anyone else more comfortable in their own skin.  It takes a real warrior to truly sit with someone who is in that level of pain and show them nothing but Love. 

So……… on I go.

Unity feels like illusion today.  I don’t want to unite with everyone – especially those who chose to inject themselves with poison and have been used as a weapon against some of us (and remain vocally ignorant and in denial of this truth) who chose otherwise.  At the end – they get their healing and won’t have a f’ing clue as to how they harmed people like myself?  That doesn’t feel right.

None of this does now.  My mind is worn.  My body is worn.  My spirit feels depleted.  I don’t need a vacation.  I don’t need more sleep.  I don’t need more fancy guru fake light bullsheot mantra’s.  I need a NEW LIFE and a NEW REALITY that SUITS/FITS/ALIGNS WITH ME.  

And this ain’t it.

Preaching to the choir, I know.  Just decided to return to brutal honest truth after trying to keep it all elevated for the past few weeks.  I’m falling down at times now but I’m screaming as I go and creating the moments where I bounce the fuch back up.

So I may feel really f’ing low and challenged and just spent finished lately – but I remain focused on this:

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Love,

V.

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Hearts……….I still see them after I touch water or soap, sometimes dirt and food………..it’s strange and fascinating and today, painful as I know it is coming from within and someplace outside too – still me – but I would sure like to have nothing but such moments……

 

 

They did it again…..2023…….

 

 

Next move………..New reality………this will be me………..because I don’t have to sell myself out in order to………..

 

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I think he is………..

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KrakenQrew _Zum @lanielou5
 

Looks like the CIA, Pentagon & Nazi NATO got what they wanted…

A very angry Bear. Should have stopped at the pipeline.
The Crimea Bridge was a bridge too far.

All these MSM / US lies about Russia losing is a joke.
They went in to stop the 8 yr slaughter in the 4 regions,
disable all the Bio Labs & Child Trafficking hubs.

Russia was done & wanted Peace.
Now, the Cabal won’t get WW3…
they’ll get a pile of dust & God’s Wrath.

https://t.me/LauraAbolichannel/23722

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‼️July 2022, Dmitry Medvedev: “If they hit Crimea, then Judgment Day will come for them. Very fast and heavy.” https://t.me/LauraAbolichannel

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Well, we’ve seen this happen before – about 4 years ago or so – so nothing new – but my intention is practice run for the real thing later this month…….

 

I’m still locked out and not allowed to use OR cancel…………They’re such evil twats………

 

 

There are so many different images and videos – with my eyes I am seeing more than one bridge too……..deception abounds until we know………..

Major Explosion Destroys Europe’s Longest Bridge Connecting Crimea and Russia (VIDEO)

 

As I was saying………..

 

And then this:

 

And then this…………

Seekin Thetruth @terrydale60

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⚡️The first train passes along the railway span of the Crimean bridge, since explosion. ### t.me/georgenews

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And this one too…………

 

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BREAKING – SABOTAGE! Two Communications Lines (GSM-R) Cut in Germany – Rail Services in Northern Germany Suspended

 

And now for some Love………….

 

 

This is hard to listen to – but feels very truthful – so many of us – animal and human alike – need to kinda surrender into such healing/love………

Pig_Farmer@Pig_Farmer

 

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Abused dog feels love for the first time

 

 

The only – ONLY – reason I am sharing this is because of the dream I had over 4 years ago where, at the time, John showed me the November calendar and insisted I focus on 22 (and the year at the time was 2018).  Other than that, I don’t know what any of this indicates………lol

 

Well that’s a hero…………

 

 

Skydome Atlantis Technology of the Fallen Angels; The Watchers, Nephilim and Elohim Book of Enoch

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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

2 thoughts on “Today’s Finds and Reflections ~ 10.8.22”

  1. Feeling 100% the same. Angry. Hurting. Frankly, feeling betrayed by “home” or “the plan” or whatever is supposed to be helping us get out of this hell. This last year, I became homeless, jobless, penniless, sick, on the brink of starving, and every day I wake up here, I wish I hadn’t. Not looking for pity, just wanting to share in case others are also fed up with “trust Home/trust the plan/SOON” while suffering increases, and are ready to DEMAND answers – with hypothetical pitchforks and torches if necessary.

  2. V: I can relate. Some of us just CANNOT settle for settling – our very Souls will not allow it. As a result, we have had a harder time here. That’s my take anyway. Sending you a warm hug and much appreciation for all you continue to do.

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