UPDATE: I forgot to share this current physical experience…..which is no surprise considering my ability to form a complete thought is a challenge not to mention my ability to RETAIN that complete thought is equally challenging atm….anyway my front cortex or maybe it’s just my brain but feeling it in my frontal cortex area – feels like it is being squeezed – much in the way I imagine we “feel” when we are traveling out of our mother’s bodies during birth. For me this isn’t creating pain – but the pressure is something I am feeling. I decided to share this with my mate and he said he couldn’t believe I was sharing this as he too felt his head was being squeezed today……
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The energy today was rough. It was very challenging to be here and be centered and in the heart. Even when I was able to center myself, I simply found zero enjoyment here. I have purposefully pulled away from the headlines the past couple of days – other than seeing President Trump’s brother Robert died yesterday. I feel off about that and others have said the same. I don’t know if I have tuned into the truth of that or just the collective’s vibe.
I have been saying “The war is over. I am free.”
All of this “stuff” playing out is absolute nonsense and as I have said, I don’t align with any of it. I am feeling even more of a stranger here. That experience really increased this weekend – and interestingly enough coincided with my choice to pull back from the headlines. Instead I have spent more of my time reading and watching movies – anything to pull as far away energetically as I can from this experience now. I am letting myself “get lost” in other worlds now. I have to – for my sanity.
I have noticed whenever I am around any sort of conflict right now or strong emotions of anger I not only detach – I feel as though I get pulled out of my body and stay there until the experience is over and then I can merge back again and find my ability to think, process and respond.
So it does seem that anything that doesn’t align with me brings about an immediate and noticeable effect and I do all I can to create my own space so I don’t have to “deal” with that which does not align. I simply will not allow any outside “force” power over me and dictate what they think I am “supposed” to do.
I. Am. Not. Having. That. Never did like it. The disdain for it – again – increases. The power to state my piece (peace) – my needs – and let be what will be – increases.
GI issues continue, although better. The need to sleep more continues and today I had the knowing this was for a real purpose now – as though the more I sleep the more “merging” I receive to make this upcoming transition/whatever “it” is event easier. I am currently feeling an increase in my desire to remember what I feel to be my Original experience (what I call Lemuria)…..very much seeking small community memories, stories and experiences….rural…..serene and peaceful…
That’s about all I have to share. Next I am sharing a video passed along to me by Sister Jules – a dream which sounds like the emit/transition. Other than that, this little place on the ‘net is pretty quiet at this time.
Love,
Victoria
God Bless ya for your straight talk and honesty.