Today’s reflection…..

 

I deleted last night’s post because it turns out what we feared had happened to one of our girl’s friends – did not.  The child made it up.

What is distressing me the most is how upset my child is.  She feels betrayed – which she has every right to feel.  She was a good friend last night to her friend – thinking something really frightening had happened – sitting there with her on the couch comforting her, telling her she did the right thing, she’s safe, etc.  I later told her what a wonderful friend she was.

My girl and I had planned on taking over cookies to her today to see how she was doing.

And then this happens.

So….tooday I feel discouraged.  Hurt that my child was hurt (and so manipulated – W O W on that).  And hurt that what she needs and deserves to have – now – while she is hurting – she isn’t getting.  So her dad and I are picking up the pieces – although I will be honest – dad is doing a much better job of it than mama is.  For me this was kind of an END point given how much energy I have invested the past two years into trying to make our girl’s life better – after the death of her grandpa, the “death” of her activities/friends and old way of living/being after this scandemic b.s.  So for me – when I now see someone I thought was a friend to her has hurt her – yeah, I kinda go mama lion now.

NO MORE.

Perhaps it’s in the air as I have felt “silence” from a lot of people I know.  Going within?  Or just not caring?  I don’t know.

All I DO know is my child’s heart is hurting and that makes my heart hurt (and brings up far too much of my own sheot) – and it doesn’t have to be this way.

We have red pills.

We have blue pills.

How about consideration pills?

I have a ton to give out.

Email me.  lol  (not really the lol – just gotta laugh at times – better than screaming – and my sarcasm has saved me from going postal at times)

Love,

Victoria

 

Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.

4 thoughts on “Today’s reflection…..”

  1. I’m so sorry that happened to her. I can’t even imagine what kids are going through with all this – bad enough on us adults. 😓 It seems like the “life” of any of us true Lights here this realm is nothing more than a long succession of such false friends, lovers and family who turn Agent Smith on a dime and leave us traumatized and feeling so crushingly alone. We don’t have “trust issues,” we have “demon issues.” And good lord, does it ever get old. 😓 Where are all these alleged “walk-ins” who are supposed to be coming in droves, anyway? We could all use a shoulder to cry on and the comfort of a hug right now from someone genuinely good, especially with all the pummeling Team Evil is doing on their way out. Add it to the list of things we’re supposed to trust are coming to relieve us of some of our burdens, I guess – “soon” – eventually. 🤦🏻‍♀️😖

    Team Evil took a cheap shot at me today, too. I got fired, after a long, exhausting battle to get help or at least exit with some sense of human dignity, which of course I didn’t receive from HR (judging by today, I think that must stand for Humanoid Raptors…insert Jurassic Park meme 🦖😎). I know this is for my good in the long run – to get out of that toxic place – and who knows, being out of there may even improve my health more than any doctor ever could. But in the moment… Ouch.

    I still trust T, and my inner knowing that we are going to get to a better place and it’s coming. My cards confirm it. But the “plan?” Or that so many have to be “awake” for this hell to be over? Nope. Zilch. Nada. That trust has hit rock bottom. 👎 The “movie” feels like it’s stuck on the projector reel, and it’s about to burn up under the hot lamp. Like, anytime, y’all… 🤷🏻‍♀️

    Sorry I rambled. Long day. Much love to you and wishing comfort for your girl. Fake friends are the worst. (Hugs)

    1. aaww – i was going to email you – and still will – just want to say AMEN PREACH and THANK YOU. i always align with your insights and thoughts. and yes – thank you so much for that very powerful share – we don’t have trust issues – we have demon issues. SPOT ON truth. mic drop walkin’ off the stage….lol will check in w/you later tonight my friend.

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