I’m typing this up then going to the nipping cold garage for some quiet. The stress in the house the past few days has been off. the. charts. Some calm energy is very much appreciated as this woman is :::this::: close to just high tailin’ it away…….My general “rule” is – if you can’t find something positive/nice to say – shut it. lol Yeah, that is not working these days.
We were all awoken very early this morning to the sound of pounding – repeated pounding. Some neighbors were having some construction going on – on a f’ing Sunday morning. It went on all day. It gets to me – those who have a lot of money because they sold out and supported the system (in this case the University and Government) and so hey – they get to do whatever they want. Need a new car? No problem. Want to get some new furniture because your 15 year old stuff is wearing out? No problem. While we in this house put a bread tie on the toaster because the knob fell off. But hey – these sell outs are more deserving according to the matrix ain’t they? I was telling my mate today – the matrix says here are our options and I tried going along w/those options for over 25 years and got kicked outta all of ’em. So today I say “nope – doesn’t work for me give me another option” and now wondering – are the options that would actually work for me ever going to f’ing materialize? For me? For ALL OF US??!!
Last night was horrid. The dreams weren’t mine. I was put into a skit with some famous evil celebrity – being forced to watch some filth – a first. I’m still appalled. It took me awhile to finally GET that I didn’t HAVE to do this. Whatever part of me is still not f’ing enraged screaming NO at this point needs to get. with. the. program. of. FREEDOM as the ME HERE NOW IS DONE.
It drives me bat sheot nuts seeing T promote the jab. Comms/code/blah blah blah. He’s still pushing this sheot – his blind followers who partook aren’t calling him out on it – nor are many of his unpoked supporters.
So………..All day yesterday it was poke poke poke. Today – a bit better but UGH. I did go to the store – the big one – without a face mask (the only one not wearing one). The smells from this place though – it’s likely they’re spraying disinfectant – perfumed. That was making me feel ugh in my head so it was a quick “in and out” and I had that ongoing thought “ok so now they’re doing this and it makes me physically ill – I’m running out of options – is this going to keep on going until there is literally no place TO go??!” Traffic was backed up – people you could sense were rushed, stressed. Still seeing people around our ‘hood wearing their masks while they’re inside their f’ing homes. The energy I’m getting at this point from some of them: they wouldn’t give up that little virtuous behavior even if the truth were shoved in front of their faces. So….if there is a split and they go “west” (if that narrative holds any truth) – today – so be it. I’m ok w/that. Also learned our governor cancelled the “mask mandate” back in late June and never made another one. It was the Health Authority (who holds no legislative power) that said it was time again to rob people of oxygen. Governor merely said it was time to put on the diapers again and people said “yes, master”. We’ve said this to a few people and it goes in one ear and out another (because apparently there is no more brain matter in some people ).
F U C H
Who here is not absolutely positively done with what is normal 3D living?
So still putting it out there and still seeking my new home – rural – quiet. It seems there’s not an ideal place anymore here in the states – much less anywhere in the realm. Our goal remains to get as far away from this insanity as possible. A few of us began to talk about doing this together. Again, once this feels right and we have enough of us, I’ll create a private group. So let me know if you are interested…..OR have some land with extra livable outbuildings/home/whatever.
For now – if you need support come check us out on telegram. Vent away. Ask questions. Ask for hugs or money or food or whatever it is you need. I don’t know how long this agenda is going to play out and how long we have to fight back. We need each other now. Period.
Love as always,
Victoria
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(hugs) It feels like you need that. 🤗💕❤️ I know it’s of almost zero help, loving intent from this person far away who is broke as a joke with no tangible help to offer (thanks *ever so*, evil matrix – me and my 15 year old paint chipped car and shedding, peeling couch and mattress on the floor can SO relate to the bread tie on the toaster, and I’m so sorry you are living that way – I wish I knew how to change it!!!). I wish I had more to offer than a listening ear and genuine caring sent thru a screen. But it’s what I have, and I’m giving it. So, for whatever it’s worth. 😥☺️💕 And it’s why I have tried to limit my venting on telegram, and here, because in this matrix induced state of poverty of means as well as mental/emotional energy, I am very cognizant of just how much I NEED and that I am able to give literally nothing in return. Because I can’t give what I don’t have. And it feels absolutely unfair of me to ask for anything, even an ear. I’ve typed up entire posts on Gab and deleted them for that reason. I told my mom, who’s been helping me with groceries and I’ve been helping her get to the doctor and work in the house, the last thing I want is to be a burden. So I am trying not to be. All that said – I do appreciate the intent behind the telegram group, and this space. I appreciate you for your raw honesty, real kindness that demands a better world and actual fairness for the truly innocent, and your generous heart. Words and intent are all I have to give, but know that I mean it, with all my heart. I hope tomorrow finds us all in a better place. Much love, sis. 💕
thank you so much sis. i just love what you wrote – and i appreciate you and value you and hold you close to my heart for who you are. and THIS above is why i started the telegram group – first and foremost. you vent away. ask what you need. whatever it is! no worries. we’re past that. we’re all struggling in our own ways. and yeah – i know – it SUCKS when i want to do x y z but can only do x or half an x or nothing but offer a listening ear. so again – no worries. you do you. you my dear beautiful wonderful Soul friend are NOT A BURDEN. evil is the burden. those f’ers who loosh and take without asking. we aren’t the burden here. THEY are. your words – your HONESTY – is a gift to me. trust me – after having had new cage/fake types offer me nonsensical advice unasked for then vanish when i say ask what i need instead of TELLING me because they are FAKE in their heart-sharing….you are the real deal! and i value you and everyone who comes here who is the same.
I always appreciate not only how real you are but how very articulate you are in explaining how you feel. I am beyond done. And I am totally w/you. BTW, I am not on telegram, do I need to join first in order to then join your group? I am so dang tired and now beyond hope after getting some very upsetting news today, that honestly I may not participate much, but it might help me feel less alone or even burdensome. Thanks for giving us a space to whine, scream, ask for help but most importantly support each other through this hell realm. Hugs V, I hope you know your also appreciated by me, even if it’s all I can offer too atm. xo
yes – you would have to sign up for telegram to participate. i hope you decide to. and thank – for your kind words. sending you peaceful comforting energies over the news you received.