so the past week or so i have really been feeling quite low at times – feeling how much i think i failed here with my life – my choices. feeling like i missed the boat on all of the “stuff” and doing’s of 3d living – career success, financial success, lots of friends and family and travel and stuff, etc. etc.
mate’s been feeling the same.
and as i am seeing in some of my social media circles – others too are experiencing this at the moment.
so tonight i was nudged to visit the comment section of yellow rose’s last video from several weeks ago. i had been listening to another channel speak of the event and the rv and NONE of it was resonating with me.
zero. zip. nada. so i followed my inner nudge.
good thing i listened. here’s what she had to say 4 days ago about all of this self-worth talk:
“Everyone has already gone through judgement. It was the main players, that they held responsible. You’ll remember it all very soon, so no worries. Its the Els that push “you’re not worthy” kind of feelings as they are very ticked off humans are leaving their control. The fact that you’re getting that sort of message, is rather telling – it tells you that you are in fact leaving them.”
my feel? they’re indeed pissed – and they’re poking. i had an image of this this morning. neo – in the matrix – dodging bullets until he realized – the bullets were an illusion. so he no longer HAD to dodge bullets.
that is where we are. NONE OF THIS IS REAL. we really are in a dream – and we are going to be fully waking very very soon. (yeah there’s that dang word again – soon – but it’s all i have.)
interesting as well to me – someone in rose’s comment section shared a dream that was very similar to what i dreamed earlier this year – seeing myself in stasis. in this particular person’s dream they’re in a medical bed – other’s around them (who they sensed they knew)- and they are waking up – feeling a lot of relief from leaving this experience here. in my dream i saw myself and wanted to scream ‘WAKE UP!!” anyway here’s the person’s dream:
“YellowRoseforTexas sneak me in the back door if im not redeemable k rose lol🌹…. u bout ready for this to end? Rose i had a dream.. . (i was on a medical bed and there were two people near me helping me wake up(felt like they knew me) in the dream it felt like i was waking up from this life im living… in the dream i felt very emotional, feelings of relief from leaving that place(real life here).. the place i was in looked like a medical facility … this dream came to me mid 2018 .. i wonder if this was a glimpse of whats to come...”
here’s something i recently said to a friend of mine who lives in australia: what if we wake up and realize we’re really in the same room together?
i haven’t heard back on that one. lol
one last recent comment from Rose, which i found just beautiful – and gives me an inner relief as i have struggled with ptsd and panic throughout most of this life cycle – and everything i have explored and tried has not healed it. in a recent day i again thought of this struggle/challenge of mine – and something stopped me and i heard and then knew – i will be healed. may her words provide some comfort:
“She is saying – to the victims, ‘you wont suffer PTSD, you will be healed and your lives will once again be abundant with love. We are leaving & its time to let go of the fighting, anger and emotions that no longer serve you.’ And to the perpetrators – ‘you are held accountable for your actions and crimes – especially those that led to true Eternal death for so many souls here.’ She wants people who are on the exit, to understand its time to stop and let go. Justice will be served. And like Trump said..NONE of these criminals gets a free pass.”
keep holding the faith…i was wondering how to end this piece as i paused and contemplated what i’ve shared tonight and the “pokes” going on – and heard “keep holding the faith” on a video playing………so that is what i do – because it’s also Who I Am.
please share any feels, comments, stories you feel inclined to.
love to you all,
victoria
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Really, resonating with what you’re feeling. But it’s multiplied by being on sleeping pills. I
cannot contemplate how everyone around is so enthusiastic. I’m happy for them and sad
for them. I haven’ t enough concentration to type something more helpful. I would love
to communicate some more, shattered at the moment, godbless.
i understand. rest and sleep. i have had this ongoing feeling for over a year now that the closer we get to “it” – the transition – the end – the more i will be sleeping. i’m not making plans now – just saying i will let you know the day of.