i awoke at around 6am this morning – wide awake – in a high level of inner angst. i got up and walked around – heated my warming buddies (it’s been very cool – unusually cool – here at night) and climbed back under the covers. i attempted to soothe myself with comforting thoughts – to no avail. i felt/heard within “let yourself feel these emotions. let yourself say what you need to say.” i questioned this – we’re taught (conditioned/pressured) to “be positive” – but that experience within was so full and heavy i went with the authentic approach. i also knew i would not return to sleep until i released.
so i cried. i moaned (quietly). i let myself say the words over and over about the disdain i have for this reality. i engaged in this process until i literally felt that huge ball of energy was gone. deflated.
as i drifted back to sleep i stated i would be gathering energy from Home and would awaken with a MUCH better inner state.
and that is exactly what happened. i awoke feeling deep peace in my heart.
and i also heard chatter in the background about families and Home and the process of returning beginning. it was one of those “quick listen to this before you fully wake up” moments. an image/vision came with it – a group of people from Home sending that message to the conscious piece of me here now – to carry me forth. a gift. the environment felt very busy. all of this came off from my left – my “sweet side” as i have always called it.
awhile later i checked in at twitter and noticed adam foremen state that the division of the families has begun.
at the very least – a synch. truth? oh how i hope – long. but as always – remains to be seen until seen/felt/experienced.
i then read on another social media page about the “split” has begun.
to be clear, i don’t align with the separation concept. however – i think this boils down to semantics. the concept of “home” IS varied and may be different for me than it is for you. or it may be the same. what is important – what is most important – is our Freedom to Choose the experience. that is what this is all about. an exit out of a system of control and return to the experience of full Freedom of choice. so for me the labels of 3d and 5d etc. are meaningless.
for myself – i have longed for home and my real family since i could hold a remembered thought/feel. nothing i have done has altered or removed the thought. i have tried over the years to convince myself otherwise – but the feeling has never left. that is not to dismiss the connections i have made here. i have every intention to continue those connections. and of importance – those connections i have made with these people here – all have too longed for Home and have felt a disconnect in the experience here.
so perhaps – this time for reals (lol) – we are on the cusp of “It”. many who don’t speak of the concept of “home” and “the event” are saying energetically they feel this current experience cannot continue – that we are at a breaking point. it is an energy within being felt by ALL now to varying levels. it is palpable. and it is H U G E.
here is to “IT”.
love,
victoria
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