Today’s Reflection ~ CLOSING TIME ~ A song from 22 years ago

 

I woke up this morning hearing the phrase “let the music guide you home. Let music set you free.”  Some people speak the language of math and science ~ I speak the language of music.  Over a year ago, Brother Rick passed along the message to me from Clair that music would help set me free.  Guide me Home.  I had no idea what that meant at the time.  Pursue my music?  Really?  AGAIN?!

Now I see that music speaks to me.  Songs.  Titles.  Lyrics.  Melody.  I have shared here many times over the last few years music that has spoken to me.  So when I heard this phrase this morning upon waking up (here – ha!), I felt perhaps there was some inspiration in that to motivate me out of the funk I had fallen into last night.  Challenging day in the household.  I have yet to master the ability to be around strong emotions and remain centered. I can – for a time – but I automatically shut down and it takes me 12-24 hours to bounce back.

So….my girl and I headed out today and drove around this end of town – venturing down streets we haven’t been on for a time.  The song “Closing Time” was on the radio as I changed the station – the very last couple of moments.  Hmm, I thought – Closing Time.  Haven’t heard that one in a long long time.

10 minutes later or so, on a different station, that song comes on again.  Ok – that was obviously a synchronicity for me that contained a message of some sort.  I listened to the lyrics and soon was in tears.  Here are the words that spoke most to my Heart:

I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
I know who I want to take me home.
Take me home
Closing time
Time for you to go back to the places you will be from.
Closing time
This room won’t be open ’til your brothers or your sisters come.
So gather up your jackets, and move it to the exits
I hope you have found a
Friend.
I cry even now just reading those words again.  My heart is heavy with longing.  I am doing the best I know how to stay in my heart and stay centered.  But dayem – I am LONELY.  Lonely for connection and friendship. In person connections.  Online isn’t pacifying me as it once did. Connections that happen organically and naturally.  I long to play music with others too. All of the choices I have made here for years to do all of that have left me where I am today – alone and waiting.  I know I am not alone in this feel/experience.
Ok.  So…..here’s a totally spontaneous synch: my mate just comes inside – says he just turned on the radio in the garage – REM is on:  STAND.  Your head is there to move you around.  So STAND.
Bring on the transition.  I am ready to put this computer aside – this website aside – and jump into the New and Remember and Heal.
Closing time.  Time to Stand.
And btw – “stand” in gematria aligns with EXIT.
Love,
Victoria
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Author: Victoria1111

Truthseeker. Philosopher. Commander of Freedom. Writer. Musician. Composer. Above all I Am A Creator.