I AM WHO I AM.
That beautiful LynYrd SkynYrd song, Freebird, has been going through my mind for the last week. I was asked last weekend if I could play it and I thought “not yet”. It’s one of my bucket songs I’ve wanted to master before, you know…. My friend Sue, who passed in 2016, who I felt come through today, was often asking me to learn it. So today I sat down at the piano and, well, I just began to play it. “You know this song,” I heard in my mind and as I let go, I began to play. It was amazing. My mate and child went to the bank and were gone maybe 15 minutes and by the time they got home I took my mates hand, asked him to sit down so I could play it for him. Freebird is one of a handful of songs that make him very emotional. It’s a song that’s been around him lately too so I felt I wanted him next to me as I played it. It was emotional for both us. At the end he said “wow you really learned that fast!”
Today I tuned in to how I feel here: stuck. duh lol I expanded on the feeling. This realm feels sticky to me. It’s as though there is some sort of metaphoric/energetic “glue” they put on us to stick us in this shithole. My body and Soul don’t lie to me and that is what I feel has happened. I KNOW it.
I don’t know how much longer I can do these lockdowns much less continue to stay here in the pit of oz surrounded by mask wearing beings. Energetically I am so far removed from it – so repelled by it – I am banging – screaming – on the door to get me the fuck out of here. Who the hell says they get the final scene in this experience? The final say? Much less ANY sort of influence as we close down this experience? Seriously – who let that happen? Bring on that damn split NOW.
I remember as a child I used to watch birds and envy them. They could fly away from predators – fly away if the weather turned inclement. They could float on a breeze and just BE STILL. I have always ALWAYS wanted to do that and more. In my “What About Me” booklet I filled out in 1st grade, I was asked what I like to watch. “Brids”, I wrote (took me awhile to learn how to spell the word).
Today as I tuned in I heard “I am awake”. Merge me for the rest. This bird – who will never change her desire for Freedom – is ready.
I leave you w/the song – which beautifully enough has 2.2 million views. I have seen 222 so much today I stopped counting.
Love,
Victoria
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Warms me cockles to hear that one again! I miss those rock n’ roll days! Thanks for sharing!
me too. (i’m still giggling over the “warms me cockles” – i love that phrase!)