Today’s Reflection on Unity and Division

 

let me tell you – the more i dive into and feel into words and theories presented here, the more i see that most everything – if not ALL – is a program….something to be questioned for greater innerstanding and/or something to be tossed altogether.

for some reason my inner self wanted to grasp the concept of Unity and Division – how Division is ending.  i have not been able to fully feel into that and i was not “getting” why.  it sounds nice in theory doesn’t it?  all of us United as One.

and yet – that feels off to me.

i have come to feel that the ending of Separation is pretty simplistic in that we are ending this Separation from our own Selves.  whatever piece of us has been inside of this cube realm longs to be reconnected to any and all of us on the outside.

but feeling One with every part of Existence?  perhaps that will be part of this transition.  and yet – freedom includes pure freedom of choice and that leaves me knowing there are some creations and thus some being’s i would have no desire in which to have experiences.

so that leads me to division.  there is going to be Division happening.  i was thinking of my own experience in my own part of this realm.  i’m not happy here – where i live.  grateful yes for what i have.  but do i feel connected in my town?  no.  do i resonate w/it?  heck no – far too crowded regardless of where you go.  do i feel any sense of a tribe here?  nope.  i wish to “divide myself out and away”.  it feels unnatural to me to have this giant “melting pot” of ALL behaviors and ALL choices and ALL perceptions/feels/beliefs.  i long to feel COMMUNITY and CONNECTION and that ain’t happening here no matter what choices i have made over the years.  the inner does not lie.

so….that word Division gets a bad wrap in the truther movement.  i look at it simply.  division is all are free to live as they wish.  create as they desire and choose.  you go there.  i go here.  etc. etc.

reconnected with all of Us – having TRUE individual experiences.

i saw an interesting video the other night (i think i may just link it – it’s long – as in 3 hours long – and i fast forwarded throughout) and the guy spoke about how there are some here to Awaken and Go Home (he gave us the name “positives”) and there are some who are here to keep the old system going – simply not programmed to awaken (those he referred to as the “negatives”) then the rest – the majority – are the Observers.  most of these Being’s resonate w/the idea of staying here and cleaning up “Mother Earth”.  …  i pause and reflect – and laugh a little.  i used to feel guilty for not wanting to do that.  i thought i SHOULD stay behind and clean up.  yeah well i know anything with a “should” attached to it is an unhelpful narrative so i eventually let it go.

this continues to be a “go within/trust thy feels” experience doesn’t it?

other than that – the energy felt weird today.  my body ached and longed to be pulled.  i went on a couple of bike rides – one quite intense – to release what was obviously lingering trauma energy from last night’s dog encounter.  i also stretched my body on some playground equipment – did quite a bit of moaning to help release.  that helped some – for awhile – and now i need to get on a yoga mat and stretch again.  i also had another experience while resting where i felt something off to my left acting like a gentle vacuum on my brain.  “pulling out” memories to take with me?  who knows.  i’ve had that a few times over the past 2 years or so – always while resting – and always off to my left.

i think that’s about it for now.  let me know what’s going on w/ya’ll.

love,

victoria

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