Today’s Reflection ~ Purging, letting go and healing reaching an end and some misc. tidbits

 

That’s my feel anyway – feeling I reached a peak and now I’m in this space of full on surrender knowing what is mine and what isn’t.

I had a conversation with Sister D and we each had an identical experience with our landlords this past week or so.  In each conversation with our individual land owners, both of us felt we were saying thank you and good bye – and the energy exchange went both ways whether the exchange was conscious or not.  My mate and I had a convo w/ours this week and it wasn’t until later in the day where we both commented how we were saying good bye to one another and giving gratitude.  For me it felt like an energy “cord” was healed and cut.

My girl and I headed out today for a nature walk.  The first place we wanted to go would have required me to wait in traffic gridlock (road construction) and my sensitivities simply cannot do these experiences now, so we headed to another place.  As we walked in one direction towards the road, I could hear cars.  Each one stood out and annoyed the sheot out of me.  With my girl chatting away, I had to plug my ears and take deep breaths to stay grounded.  (Did I mention my sensitivities are imploding now?  ha!)  As we headed back up and away from the noise of traffic, I commented that I would be absolutely wonderful to never hear another damn car noise again.

Sister D and I spoke of the debate.  She didn’t watch.  We started to – and my mate and I struggled to get into it -but we were simply frustrated – then suddenly the internet went out.  It didn’t come back on in a consistent manner until after the debate.  Attack or divine providence?  I lean towards the latter.  (we have been having a lot of internet disruption so it could be just another system here crumbling.)

We also spoke of hand holding those who may be “shocked” as the truth is shown in more “obvious” ways (not that it isn’t obvious at this point but that is just my perception) – neither of us have the desire to “be there” for others in those moments.  I’m thinking that was just another matrix program.  I have zero zip nadda desire to do that now.  My focus now is within and getting out of here and stepping into the New.

And I am not aligning with seeing full disclosure either.  Just not interested.  Others have shared the same.

I am also seeing others share their experiences and insights on the new – how in the new we don’t have these tedious chores.  The cooking, the cleaning, the dusting – all of these “slave jobs” that take up far too much of our time.  I remember I once felt guilty and lazy for wanting the Easy Life. Press the EZ button.  Now?  No guilt.  I know what I want and I don’t let old programs of self judgment to interfere.

My girl and I had an odd experience hours apart last week – we both had a sudden, painful poke near our elbows – mine on my left, hers on her right.  It was as though someone poked us with a needle.  It didn’t feel “evil” or anything negative – just interesting.  Perhaps one of those “something being done in the outside” experiences.  (And btw – that’s really all I want to talk about now.  The call to be in that space is ever present.  I appreciate speaking about the awakening and all of that – but now unless the conversation is about Home, I am just not energetically aligning with full authenticity.)

Energetically I am quite exhausted much of the time.  Mentally detached too from things around me.  Again the feel is part of me is absolutely elsewhere. It makes no difference what I eat or how I move my body.  Even going for a nature walk did nothing for me today other than a temporary distraction.  All I could feel and think was how I would rather live elsewhere with a path to the beach near my home.  I am waking up with anxiety – which has been ongoing.  Sister D remarked the same.  But it feels different than waking up suddenly in a panic.  This feels like an anticipation or as the “experts” label it – anticipatory anxiety. Let’s just call it excitement that something big HUGE new is coming and my human brain still doesn’t know exactly what it is so there’s a little apprehension in the energy.

And speaking of excitement, I will end this piece with a message I received from Brother Rick just a bit ago – we are so close, Home cannot contain the excitement any longer.  As I shared that one w/my mate, I rolled my eyes, sucked in my breath and said with my jaw tense:  “are we ready to go?”   My mate gave the same look and said in the same manner “F YES!”

We have had enough encouragement.  Enough messages.  Enough intel.  As Brother Rick sometimes says  JUST GET ‘ER DONE.

It is SO DONE!  Because WE are.

Love,

Victoria

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Thank you all for your love and support!

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