I haven’t shared much lately as to how I have been – especially this past week. After feeling moments of “amazing” and feeling very strong and powerful – earlier this week that shifted and I have been struggling since. Being around the v’d – out a lot in public with crowds – not following my own advice of only going out to get supplies after a certain hour when all is pretty quiet – hit me. Having the same physical symptoms. Mate went out yesterday and had the most intense headache of his life. Thankfully it subsided overnight.
I lay in bed last night and cried for what seemed like a good hour. I couldn’t stop. After the crying need ceased, I began seeing “them” in my minds eye. Never had that happen before. I had no fear. I saw several versions of “them” – each looking at me. I shook my head and simply said “NO” and they disappeared. NOT WORTH MY TIME.
The feeling continues today. I don’t want to be weak or run down. I want to be STRONG. But I am as I am now. And I derive Strength in letting myself feeeeeeel those intense emotions that separate me from the zombies and allow me to BE HUMAN.
Now I “get” what 17 meant by wearing the armor of God. THE one and only God. And Jesus. I’m not religious – but there is something to visualizing that “armor” and calling on that Powerful Love/Consciousness of Jesus. For me that is. This war is indeed Spiritual and these dimensionals T spoke of are very real. Sick. Demented. Pure evil. Neighbors of ours – friends – who are quite religious – wonderful people – without diving into the rabbit holes as we have in this house – feeeeel too in their body and know we are under attack by something evil. It’s palpable for anyone who has done ANY ongoing searching/questioning of this matrix reality.
So…..today I am who I am. I am f’ing done with these dolts who are lining up to get their kids jabbed and masked. O M G WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM? At this point – WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM? Makes me want to scream. Their decisions come from an energy of insanity. No logic. No rational/critical thought. And absolutely zero emotion other than fear (on over-drive). So yeah – I am a bundle of emotions today. But still solid as ever in my Truth.
Here is a current self portrait. Me behind the matrix grid surrounded by blah. When I hear system speak that is what I hear – and this is what I feel like. Something I just doodled while waiting to get on this here laptop.
As always….
Love,
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I’m new to all this and I’m not sure if I should leave a remark but I felt compelled to. I’m sure you e heard it before but when you start feeling that way that’s when your experiencing an assault of the spiritual nature. That’s when you BUCK and never ever and I mean ever back down! You fight because if you don’t who will?! It is overwhelming at times when i start thinking about all this just horrible nasty evil crap is going on but there is no quitting there’s no easy way out! I always pray when I start feeling that way and hand it off to god. Liked your post but I noticed in your doodle that you think your alone and that’s just not the case when you fight the right people will ALWAYS have your back remember that. God bless and TrustHEplan!