Today’s Struggle/Reflections

 

Oh my gosh so many things in my heart and on my mind – just gonna let this one be pure stream of consciousness.

To begin with, my mate has had to go back into the medical establishment.  I don’t speak much of his health issues – but they are life altering – life limiting.  He has advanced lyme – the medical establishment doesn’t recognize that.  He has been on a variety of alternative therapies – including chinese medicine for the past 4 years.  It doesn’t really work – or has stopped doing its thing.  This fucking man-made (out of plum island new york) current bioweaponized version of “lyme” is an epidemic and his story is not unusual.  He’s been bullied and abused – lied to and deceived by the medical system.  He walked away from it all – we both did – several years ago after their dismissal turned to outright abuse.

However, he has had some worsening of symptoms and knows he needs some scans to see just how “bad” things are inside.  He also has a tumor behind his right eye that was supposed to be monitored yearly by MRI’s – as originally diagnosed and prescribed by his first neurologist, who we decided to stop seeing as the office staff was HORRIBLE.  So he found another neurologist who acknowledged the tumor but for reasons she would not share, refused to schedule another MRI to monitor the tumor – which was growing – slowly – hence the need to MONITOR it yearly (it’s also behind his eyeball and surgery is quite risky).  So he’s back at it with a new doctor in the hopes SHE will listen to him and actually work with him to help him – the way doctor’s are supposed to instead of answering to the pharma and medical system “suits”.

If we had the money we would try other alternative means – but we don’t.

Which brings it all back again in my face – in our face – those with money have a much better chance of healing and living/doing well.  Money equates to “more” freedom in this realm – no doubt about that.  I was awake most of the night over this.  I don’t know how to find peace in any of this.  I can’t lie to myself and say “all is well” when it isn’t.

I’ve stopped saying “support and help are here now” because this has not been the case.  If anything, the two of us have been abandoned more than ever.  Reality is a hard pill to swallow and most people we know do not want to see anything that is so difficult and painful.  And we have ample people we know who are in good health and are doing quite well $$.  It SICKENS me to know this.

LOVE WAVE NOW!

I was also online earlier and saw a social media’s friends post.  She has dealt with the same challenge as I have since young adulthood – agoraphobia. She is in a lot of distress right now – as are so many of us, right?  She’s struggling to get out of bed.  She longs for the New and change YESTERDAY (indeed NOW as she said).  And what were the responses?

Suffering is a choice.

You are here to learn lessons.

You agreed to this.

Humanity isn’t ready for the changes you want.

OMG.

I get HUGELY driven within to DO AND assist when I see ANYONE getting bullied that way.  Love does this?  Oooh, I think not!

I had to respond.  Rather than try and remember what I said, I’ll just share that below:

“you speak words that MANY in the lightworker communities refuse to acknowledge – fully – within their hearts. i have pulled back from a lot of my former sources of info FOR that very reason. many of these people claim suffering is in our minds or pain is necessary for lessons. nonsense. we were hijacked here – our FREEDOM to BE stolen. minds wiped. puppets (likely non-souled matrix creations) installed to power over us with the pay to live systems….. and while it is stated this is being returned, frig – the exhaustion and the I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE for it is not WHO I AM is huge right now among the groups of us who align w/the same thoughts and feels. Love Acts Now. it is said we have higher dimensional assistance from home – we need to see this NOW. i know my body and heart and both are beyond weary regardless of what i tell myself. and heal thyself? i have focused on doing just that for YEARS. it is all frequency – and we need – NEED – this frequency of LOVE (aka the event) to enter our experience once again. for this IS an inside and outside “job” (experience. many of my readers feel the same. and yet i also know the words i speak are very politically incorrect in many of these new age type groups. i listen to the words of lisa harrison, linea fairylight ginn and yellow rose for texas who all speak the same/similar words. this realm is a free will experience – which means ALL is allowed. love doesn’t operate like that. freedom is the energy of Love for it NEVER seeks to power over another. lessons karma forced reincarnation – NONE of this is pure source energy. we ARE Source Creator Being’s – whose SOLE/SOUL reason for Being IS to Create Freely. period. return what was removed/wiped/taken NOW.

suffering is a choice?  suffering is a RESULT of this prison. would you say those words to a child of sex trafficking? would you say those words to someone who is being beaten and abused? to the person who got sick as a result of the poisons in this realm? we are here because we have been energetically CONFINED to the false reincarnation system installed here. this realm is a fake simulation. look around – research – and you will come to see what i and so many others have. and look within – does this realm FEEL “right” and in alignment with Who You Really Are?

you know what love does people? love ASKS xxxx what she needs. period. what do you need xxxx? i will do my best to assist (even though i’m in a very similar state – i do know in my heart what love does – and what i would want myself if expressing such words).”

On this day, I have no other words to offer.

Victoria