Out on our nightly bike ride I stopped to say hello to the tree. Last minute move as I had no plans on doing that. I seem to know when she has something to tell me.
I get off my bike and walk over and placed my hands on her. After a couple of moments I began to feel dizzy ~ an unusual experience. I could feel myself spinning down some sort of a hole or into a vortex of some sort. I heard “mourning” and thought “that’s an odd word”. Did not expect that. When I questioned again for clarification I kept hearing “it’s an M word”, over and over, which then morphed into “mourning” again.
Oh, my tree is mourning, I thought then felt “no this is about you”.
Me? What am I mourning? I asked.
Go within, I heard. You are letting go of a lot right now. I began to question this when suddenly I’m hit with the feeling of loss. I then began to cry. At this point I put my head onto her and literally leaned into her as much as I could.
I felt if she had “arms” she would put them around me ~ for she was in fact hugging me back in the way, well, trees do. I felt very comforted and embraced.
I then heard – and this was the hardest part for me – that I would also be letting go of her too – and that she would miss me and my hugs. That had a very strong impact on me. Big changes were coming – just weeks away. She would be having her own higher dimensional experience and apparently I was not going to be included in her experience? I felt as though I was going to my own space as was she. Brain struggling to understand and I heard “you will know when the time is right and you will just do it”.
What exactly does this mean? Is New Earth our current planet at another frequency? Or is there another earth-like planet we call New Earth as well? I know when I had my first dream of this realm, of the house, witnessing my powers, my first impression was this was not earth but an earth-like planet (using planet as I have no other reference). Are there some of us who will be leaving Gaia to move on to this new earth while others stay behind on Gaia? It is possible. That is what I have felt all along. There are no judgments in that. No right or wrong, better than, etc. It is truly the workings of our Highest Selves.
All I know to do is trust in the process, surrender to my Higher Self and Creator. I am here now to have this experience. That I know more than anything.
For now, I will continue visiting my wonderful tree. Tonight though I do feel the surprising tears of mourning around my heart, of good-bye, of gratitude, or the memories of visiting her ~ all of those visits on foot and by bike. Rainy. Cold. Warm. Sunny. Some quick. Some longer. Some alone. Some with my child or mate. The power of mourning. For no matter how much I have moments, more of them these days, where I am so ready to “GO”. Take the next big step. Go to the NEW. Fully restored. I am still humbled when Life reminds me of all of the moments I have had in this life, even the difficult ones of pure hell, and how part of this process is saying good-bye to all of it.
Tonight Life spoke to me through my sacred tree. And wow – for that – well all I can do is whisper “thank you”.
For ALL of it.
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